he-who's-torn

we're planning to do something exciting this weekend...i just don't know where to go to; manila on sunday or tagaytay on saturday...(sigh) it's quite confusing [when you're me].

:-)

so there. a lot of [dreadful] things are happening. mainly caused by insignificant creatures who are dwelling in their world full of insecurities...i really don't understand why ever why these people were let to lurk the corners of the earth! and you call yourselves "humans." i'm feeling stressed just thinking about the lies and rumors they made and are making making just to make themselves feel better, to get what they want, and to achieve their selfish, ambitious goals.

what's up with those worthless excuses? were we not good enough for you? weren't we friends?

i mean, what have we done wrong to [you to] deserve such accusations and treatments? but i shouldn't think about them anymore, should i? i'm just hurting myself even more just thinking about them...(sigh) but if you're in my situation, you'd also probably be bothered...

last post for the night...

PHYSICS FAIR tomorrow...[excited!]

i'm still deciding whether to go to manila or tagaytay.

probably manila on Sunday, an opportunity for me to visit my recently deceased uncle. by the way, i wanna thank those people who extended their condolences to me and my family. I also extend mine to my uncle's family. [thanks for everything:-)]

got some studying to do...so...

see yah!:-)

Kpop me:-)

so i decided to post another blog just to relieve me from the things that are making me stressed out. (sigh). i'm tired. i mean really tired. physically and emotionally pumped out! haha.X_x.

looking back just a month ago, before i went back here in uplb, i told myself that i'd improve my study habits and focus more on the subjects that i feel i need to be exerting a bit more effort on. but now, hah! (whoala!) i can't quite fulfill the goal i previously set.:-( sad, really...

earlier this morning, i took my 2nd exam on my food microbiology 180 course. and man! it's almost as hard as the first one. i don't know why i find the exam hard. i reviewed the whole coverage the whole weekend (well most of it:-)), but still, the questions are quite confusing. we're supposed to memorize the characteristics of the microorganisms related to food and be able to identify them during the exam, however, they're just so confusing. (sigh) i just hope i'd pass. help me get through this semester!!!! please!!! i must be optimist! haha...:-) i know i can.

anyways...just recently, i'm beginning to be, (let's see, how shall i put this...?) "a fan???" of super junior. i've been introduced to super junior 2 semesters ago, i think. at first, i'm not taking any interest in them, not even their music. then as the days went on, i began thinking that their music and the songs they sing are really cool. haha.:-) i mean really.;-)

i'm beginning to "LIKE" suju and kpop now, and i'm blaming my three "kpop-and-suju-addicted-housemates" and my BOF-addiction for that! haha. just kidding. you know, somehow, sometimes, when i wanna relax i just listen to kpop; suju, snsd (girls' generation), and others, and i immediately feel alright. haha.:-) it's the new kind sound that's taking asia by storm!!!! haha.:-) lol...anywho, speaking of super junior, my favorite members would be ryeowook and siwon. they're cool! lol. while i really love soo young of snsd!! haha. she's totally hot!:-) oh, i also like yuna, also from the same group. i posted pictures of them here:







































sooyoung:-)






















yoona:-)

i would also like to mention that i love the gail and yi jeong's love team on BOF! haha. go korea! haha. lol. too bad their relationship had no definite closure on the story.:-( but still, i love their team-up!!!!

[by the way, i'm listening to kpop as i'm typing this:-)] see yah!

my first blog for this year!

I seem to have lost my post last time. can't find it.

oh well, i'll just have to post another one...

this is my first post for this year 2010!!!! yeah!:-)
i haven't been visible on the internet world since two weeks now. [or so i think i am:-)]...

but before i say anything, i wanna include here the christmas gift i wanted to have but didn't have for christmas...and it's:

david archuleta's christmas album! haha.:-)
anyway, christmas is already over unless some of you might wanna give me a super-late-christmas-present?:-)
just kidding.

anyways, it's been one week since the semester resumed after the christmas break. first week of university life for 2010 yet i'm already tired of all the things i have to do and accomplish.:-( quite sad really. exam week's coming and i'm afraid i'm not ready to take my exams yet...and then there're papers to work on, laboratory exercises to accomplish, org obligations to fulfill...sigh!

hmmm......

right now, i'm doing research on Salmonella. it's actually the report assigned to me in food microbiology. hope we [me and my partner, that is] do great! and i am also praying to get a good grade on my physics exam!( to do that, i'll have to study hard and logout on the net! haha.):-)

bye! have a lot of studying to do!:-)

bothersome.

i just have to get this out of my head!!!:-(

this something that makes me feel ikee inside.
this something that i think is inappropriate.
this something that is not right.
this something that makes me wonder.
this something that makes me worry.
this something that brings back the past. the past that i would love to forget.:-(
this something that irritates me.
this something that makes me watch. that makes me feel AWKWARD.:-(

i would not call this the thing i would not want to say 'til i know it is really it. it's really bothering me. and i mean really really bothering me. it's the feeling i felt years ago that made me want not to feel it again 'til i'm sure i'm ready to feel and face it like a man. it's completely complicated. (sigh).:-(

i feel that i don't have the right to be frustrated. but i am.

i really hope it's not the thing i think it is. i hope i can get this out of my head!

bye!:-(

he-who-doesn't-feel-like-it:-(

i don't know. i really really don't know.:-(

i hate it. i hate it so much.:-(

(sigh!):-(

i'm aiming to post two blogs today, since i haven't visited this account for a long while. hope i can achieve that.:-)

right. now that my semester has finally crossed the finish line, i can now be able to take a look back on the things i apparently took for granted. i hate the end. hate it so so much...don't know why i do. maybe i just hate feeling left alone without anyone to talk with. as my days here in elbi add up, i remember my dorm days.:-) and that feeling of loneliness every end of semester. that kind of feeling i experience while staring at those dormers outside the dormitory with their baggage, wating for their parents to pick them up.:-(

i'm planning to go home tomorrow. but i think i don't have the courage to do so yet. i also don't know why...i hate it...really.

this semester had been cruel. i mean, really cruel. for me at least...:-(
i had a lot of precious time wasted. really wasted. but i couldn't blame anyone but me. i took every moment for granted and never thought of the consequences of my previous actions.:-(
it's sad. really sad. my grades this semester is actually below average, compared to my grades last semester. i expect almost all of my grades this sem is on the line of 2 and/or lower. it's not because i don't study. i do. when i can and when i badly need to. maybe it's because i underestimated my subjects this semester. i expected them to be easy and passable but they're not. they're hard. and cruel. and hard. and really cruel. they make my nose bleed and my brain squeeze.

[(sigh!) and a big one.]

nevertheless, i'm expecting to pass all my courses this semester. only, not with the grades i expected myself to have, but with grades just enough to make me feel good about myself. one thing's for sure, i'll make it a point to give my studies more time next semester.:-)

songs for the day: "Somebody Out There" and "Waiting for Yesterday"
[both by David Archuleta:-)]

a hang-over:-)

i accidentally closed mozilla. darn. so, i guess i'll have to type it all over again... ok, here it goes. again...:-)

OH HAIL THE MOVIE, "IN MY LIFE"!!!!!!!!!

it's the newest movie of star cinema starring vilma santos, johnlloyd cruz, and luis manzano.
today is actually the nationwide premiere of the movie, and we just have to watch it right away!!! haha. it was really worth the effort and money, and time, and [tears]. haha.:-) we travelled all the way to walter mart in calamba, laguna from uplb just to watch the film.

the actors were great! awesome! fantastic! the settings were beautiful! the lines are unforgettable! i really can't say anything more to such a fantastic film. i give my two thumbs way way up high!!! i'd love to watch again. and maybe again, and again...haha:-)

he-who-remembered-to-drop-a-line [or more:-)]

finally!!!! [haha] i found time to post a blog on my site.:-)

looking back, july was the date of my last post. it's been really long. the interval, i mean. nevertheless, i'm still trying to keep this site runnin'....:-)

anyways...life's going great. but not as planned. you know. you're happy with what is happening in your life yet you've not planned of having any of them. confusing really.

updates on my acad-life:
well, it's not at all going the way i planned it. i'm failing exams on subjects i strictly told myself not to fail. i'm doing the best i can, honestly, yet, it seems not enough to deserve a passing grade. all i'm praying at the moment is not to fail any of my courses this semester.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's hard. quite hard. especially if you other things that keeps you busy.

however, my other subjects are on the boundary between average and above average. i consider it to be a good sign of getting through this first semester well. i hope it is. [fingers crossed]........

other stuffs:
org. done another concert last end of july. we never quit, don't we?

(sigh)

these past few days are a bit stressful for me, not because i have loads of exams but because i feel the pressure of my commitments as the end of the semester nears. i really hope i can get through all this!!!!

sigh! oh well. better get used to it, i guess.
anyway, the next time i post a blog again, i'll update everyone on what i've been doin'....

see yah!